B-ig brother

so big brother's supposed to be modern day slang for the government right?
or simply just being under surveillance, which is beyond your control.

so while i haven't experienced that, I have experienced something many others havent.

I have a Big Brother, who's also my Best Friend.
his name is larry, and we're 7 years apart.
we have different fathers.
same mother.
wouldn't have it any other way.
most of all, we have each other.
because we have a shared experience, we share an indescribable bond.
nothing that anyone could penetrate or break.
I was afraid that when he got married, our relationship would become strained.
I was actually mad at him.
Because our situation was so unique, I was angry with him for trying to be carbon copy. For trying to make this life that we only knew from tv.
I thought he understood that Love didn't last. That we weren't meant to live that life.
I had become so adjusted to the single parent life, that I thought that was all we were destined for.
We're supposed to go against the grain. Laugh at the gullible saps who thought they had found "the one" & that their love would conquer all.
But he didn't want to be like me.
He wanted to be his own man. And he was.
My brother still keeps my secrets.
still answers when i call.
still talks to me for hours.
still gives great advice.
still acts as the objective middle man between me and my mother.
still reassures me when I screw up.
still buys my food.
still gives me hugs.
still says, "I love you, sis."
still is my brother.
And nothing will ever change that.
he tried to fill a void that he didn't empty.
he tried to heal a heart that he knew was hurting.
he tried to love a girl so she would know how to.

Toast to the first man I ever loved.
My Alpha and Omegaman, and I'm not talkin greek life.
I'm talkin something special.
something most get, but don't have.
something i've never been so grateful for in my life.
thank the most high for my blessing in [this]guy.

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