M-an I love College

every so often, I realize how lucky I am.
I have a great family who gives me everything I need
I'm attending the college of my choice
I've been able to work to support myself and my family when they need it
I have met some amazing people
who have been amazing friends
I have found a great passion for education
I've fallen in love with a city other than D.C./P.G.
I try new things everyday
I believe I have truly found myself,
and I expand upon that person constantly
For once, I have learned how to love myself.
it's just so exciting sometimes to see the person you're becoming
and remember the person you were.
You realize that every day will not be sunny,
but you also realize that that doesn't mean you can't dance in the rain.
I've grown up enough to know when you can't go it alone
and when you have to bow out gracefully.
I'm working on alot though
and I still don't have all the answers.
There's still alot that I wish I could change,
and alot that because I can't change it--I wish I could accept.
But no one's perfect.
And I don't even strive to be.
I looove being flawed, wrong, defected--
it's all good :)
Because it really is.
Because somedays, I'm SO happy to be here.
and somedays I wish I never were.
But today is one of those days where I'm so happy that I'm at this particular red light,
where I can sit and think,
admire my surroundings
and the people sitting and moving around me.
I guess you could say I'm in my bag.
It's just that life really doesn't happen the way you expect it, or plan it to--
but it's always gonna turn out the way it's supposed to.
So I'm not scared of anything
not too much.
Because it's written in the stars.
The stars are above us
there for us,
but out of our reach
providing the glimpses of hope, inspiration and dreams during a clear dark night
when for just a moment, we looked up and experience utter captivation.
it feels like home
for you?
for me.
the stars have always been a friend to me
because I never had to understand them or defined them
I let them be,
and let them be what I wanted them to be for me.
and that's fine ;)
I really owe it all to college.
it loved me.